Here we go again. The relapse is-it-or-isn’t-it game is back. After a week full of energy, I am once more being held hostage by the sofa and daytime television. I am absolutely, ridiculously exhausted beyond reason.
I spoke to the MS nurse about this and she said that it was unlikely to be a full-blown relapse, more a temporary increase in symptoms, given that I had Alemtuzumab in the summer. This is supposed to cut down the relapse rate and therefore slow down the progression of MS. My spirits rose, until she added that it could still be a relapse though. I need to monitor things until I see the neurologist next week for my 6-month check up, but she thought the symptoms are more likely to be due to the stressful work situation.
Luckily, I had already completed my work quota for the week, the house was clean and The Teenager’s rugby kit had been washed, so even though it was incredibly boring , at least I wasn’t panicking. Too much. And when I say boring, I mean really, really boring. Too tired to read, I watched inane telly – lots of people with antiques, people rubbing their hands in glee at buying a cheap house at auction, shouty people shouting at other shouty people and ghoulish people chasing after other people’s inheritances.
When I wasn’t watching telly, I was sleeping, as I was too bored to do anything else. A whole packet of chocolate toffees somehow disappeared. I once again counted the cobwebs on my ceiling and admired my Christmas decorations from the sofa. The biggest problem I faced was cooking dinner when The Teenager got home. I had bought ingredients to make spaghetti carbonara . Not that difficult – bit of cream, Parmesan, bacon and a couple of eggs.
Feeling like I’d been run over by a juggernaut , it became a Herculean task. I briefly wondered if he would notice the difference if I made Super Noodles instead. At the last minute, I decided to kill two birds with one stone. Cancel the cooking, put away the ingredients and collect some Teenager brownie points. We had a chippy. I will make the carbonara tomorrow.
