Why not write a diary? Why not chat to friends? Why blog?
I have thought a lot about this since I started my blog last September. Why am I exposing my innermost thoughts to the world? Hmm. Long story short – when I was going through the MS diagnosis period, I read everything possible about MS. I read the factual sites, I read the blogs, I read the chat rooms.
All of them offered me great support, with a special mention to the MS Society forums. Yet, I still felt there was something missing. Where was the humour? I went through hell during my diagnosis. I got drunk, fell over, bored my friends to death. But I came out the other side, stronger and ready to take on the world.
I wanted to show people that yes, MS is crap. It can ruin your life. Dreams are destroyed and your life plan is altered forever. MS shatters families. But when the worst has happened, surely the only way is up?
I think I have incorporated MS into my life. I hope so. And it’s pretty grim a lot of the time, but other times it makes me laugh out loud. I am used to the dodgy walking, the foot drop, the random jerking and general oddness. The fatigue is just part of my life now. I do as much as I can, when I can.
To begin with, I kept my blog a secret from my friends and family. I wasn’t ashamed, I just felt exposed. But now, even though I know there are people reading my blog who I would prefer not to, I just think, ‘and?’.
This is life with MS. It ain’t always pretty, but it’s the truth. The comments I have received keep me going. So often, I have thought, I can’t blog any more. Then I get a lovely comment and it makes it all worthwhile. So, I’m going to keep blogging, keep telling the crazy truth about life with MS. And all feedback is always gratefully received…