Life Support

HeathNot the best week for a blog that’s supposed to show the lighter side of life with MS.

To cut a long story short, I had to take my mum urgently to A&E early this morning.

She’s chronically ill. It scares me. I may be 40, but I’m not ready to face all this. My mum has been my support system throughout the whole MS story and I feel kind of ….rudderless?

Don’t get me wrong, I don’t rely on my mum for physical help, it’s the mulling/chatting over stuff that has seen me through the last two years. She’s been there every step of the way. It pained her to the very core to see yet another family member become diagnosed with this disease.

She nursed my father through PPMS and was only 28 when he died.

And now I am the one being strong, reassuring and forward planning. It’s not easy. I feel worn out and exhausted. But in a strange sort of way, I have found some kind of strength, from somewhere. My mum needs me.

This post hasn’t been edited. I’m writing as I find. I just wanted to explain what’s happening. I’m not the sort of person who can skip over stuff. I’d love to write about stuff that happened recently that made me laugh – and there’s been plenty. But right now, I’m in adrenalin mode. I know I’ll collapse at some point, just not right now.

I’m waiting for my sister to take me to the hospital. I’m shaking too much to drive.

Wish me luck. I need my mum. I’ve just heard she’s staying in overnight, at the very least. I’m going to hold her hand and tell her I love her. Because I do.

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24 thoughts on “Life Support

  1. stevedomino says:

    there are no words – much love to you and yours x

  2. Hang in there, my dear. Wishing you and your mother nothing but the best and sending big hugs. Please, please keep us posted.


  3. chris says:

    Sending a great big ms hug stay strong

  4. John says:

    So sorry to hear of your mother’s ill health. It is always very hard when the people we love and regard as the “rocks” that give our lives stability become ill. I hope that she soon recovers as much as is possible.

  5. Samantha Thompson says:

    Thinking of you xxx

  6. Val Bailey says:

    So sorry to hear about your mum.I (and I am sure all your blog recipients) feel for you and will be thinking of you. Dont forget to look after yourself too! xxx

    • stumbling in flats says:

      It’s been really tough – I had to leave the admissions unit as it was so hot.
      Been back this evening – they’re keeping mum in overnight.

  7. Sue Johnson says:

    Oh so very sorry to hear your latest turmoil and sending you all good wishes in dealing with everything. Stay strong…. Xxxx

  8. Tricia Charles says:

    Keep strong, love to you and your mum.

  9. AndyM54 says:

    Thoughts are with you and your Mum. I hope tomorrow brings good news. Andy

  10. Sally says:

    Take care. Hope your mum improves soon. Hugs

    • stumbling in flats says:

      Just heard she’s being discharged today! Luckily, they’re allowing her to get a taxi home as long as I meet her at her place.

  11. Jenny says:

    My thoughts are with you. Take care of yourself too x

    • stumbling in flats says:

      Thank you! It’s so hard when parents get ill, isn’t it. I’m going to make sure she’s fine and has everything she needs.

  12. So glad to hear she’s being discharged! What a relief. As others have said, please remember to take care of yourself too. X

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