Sad, Sad World …


What is it with MS?

This melancholic feeling has descended like a lump on my life. And I hate it.

Yeah, yeah, life is hard with MS, but I mean, really?

It started when I drove home from work (a very good day, as it happens).

I sighed. Then I sighed some more, from deep within. And I felt a little bit sad.


(lump on chest)

I got home, made a coffee and thought about it, then I sighed a lot and felt a whole lot sadder.

MS. A license to feel like crap. Except I didn’t want to.

I struggled against it. I organised my scarves (a tick on my to-do-before-campath-list). I shuffled through my herbs (another tick).

I cannot say how this melancholic feeling descends. It really is out of the blue.

Life trucks on in a great way, bizarrely- I sent my book off for an award and I bought some Brazil nuts for breakfast.

So what is this stoopid MS nonsense?

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16 thoughts on “Sad, Sad World …

  1. Helen says:

    Ms sucks big time x

  2. Rachael McKenzie says:

    I get like that when I think about the cancer I had two and a half years ago! It was bad enough that my dad and my dad’s mum got cancer, but why me too? The only positive outcome is that I survived this horrible disease – sadly, my father and grandmother didn’t! 🙁

  3. 🙁 I know I can’t say anything to get a person out of feeling melancholy, but try to have a happy time. Go celebrate (again if you have already), your kid’s success with school, or get some chocolate and just be lazy and except that it wont be forever as cliche as that sounds. find some comedy videos on youtube and try to laugh at them 🙂

    and good luck with the award! 🙂

  4. wendy says:

    Yes indeed MS is a rollercoaster,never a smooth ride! Ups & downs
    all the way.My cat always brings me back to base,moods improve & knowing
    someone out there understands maybe more than our fellow humans???So go find your friend & the melancholy will i’m sure go.

    • stumbling in flats says:

      Very true! Bronte is a sweetheart. She even brought a magpie back for The Teenager on his birthday, proudly dropping it at his feet 🙂

  5. Sally says:

    I get this too but luckily I seem to lift almost as soon as it appears . I always relate to one of those silly memes that a friend posted on FACEBOOK once. “I suffer from Attention Defecit….Oh Shiny” disorder. Sometimes just making a fresh coffee or watching next door’s kitten get stuck up a tree AGAIN! Or finding an elusive Raspberry Ruffle that had fallen out of the (now empty) bag and landed behind the rarely used Five Spice on the shelf below can take me back to happy again. Over the years I have wondered if I suffer with mild depression but the speed with which it seems to lift (rarely more than a day) makes me more inclined to believe it just is, as you describe, melancholy.

    • stumbling in flats says:

      Great point! Yup, I don’t think it’s depression – it comes quickly and goes quickly – and is more of a nuisance than anything else.
      Life is pretty good right now, so this just slows me down, gah. Feeling a lot better today 🙂

  6. Phill Evans says:

    It’s definitely an M.S thing. About 15 years before I got diagnosed I started getting random bouts of depression and anxiety. Of course, being a psychiatric nurse at the time I simply assumed I was a bad person and didn’t seek help or support… However since discovering that a) it’s a side effect of the neurological damage done by M.S and that b) M.S often effects you for about fifteen years before diagnosis I have allowed myself to be treated with antidepressants. Happy to say that for the last ten years or so the mood crashes have been relegated to mere potholes on the road of life…

    Here’s hoping your black dog takes itself for a walk very soon!

    • stumbling in flats says:

      That’s really interesting!
      I get two distinct things, both of which I attribute solely to MS – the melancholic days and the week of absolute depression. The latter is pretty awful and there’s absolutely no reason for it. Happens a couple of times a year and I just think, oh here we go again.

  7. Jamie Masq says:

    I can – I’ve lost the word – for some reason I think its resonate but that could just be my brain playing tricks on me. For a while, I was told I could possibly have MS but after my Neuro visit, I was informed my symptoms are consistent with Fibromyalgia. However, what you have said about the sudden dip, I can relate too. Aha! I’ve remembered the correct word. Anyhow, I stumbled (not to reuse your title – but I did!) upon your blog over a year ago at a time when I was waiting and worrying about various things that were happening to my body that I didn’t understand. That’s not to say I do now, but I’m learning not to worry too much. I love your blog and am glad to see you’ve managed to have it published as a book 😀 congratulation on that!!

    • stumbling in flats says:

      Thank you so much! And I hope you are getting the right treatment?

      It’s been a labour of love to have my book published, but I am so glad I pressed ahead with it! It’s been great to collate two years into one volume.

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